Songs can bring up memories, everyone knows that. My iTunes turned on an old song from Hilary Duff called "Sweet Sixteen." This was on her debut album, Metamorphosis, which came out in 2003. I was only ten when it came out, and I can remember listening to this song and imagining how awesome it'd be to be sixteen. I figured I'd be going all over with my friends, just driving around listening to music, and I'd have a blast. I thought being sixteen was going to be the coolest thing of my life.
Little did I know that I'd end up spending way too much time on the computer, and end up building a love and addiction for it. A lot of good has come out of that, of course, but when I was ten, I was only just starting to use the internet reguarly. And it was just to go play on Neopets. That's where my internet addiction started, actually, but that's not what this is about. I'll tell that story one of these days. Anyways, had you told my ten year old self what I'd be like today, I honestly would have laughed at you. In fact, my mom always did used to tell me that one day I'd hit a 'phase' where I only really liked black, and would be all "alternative." I did laugh, and I told her she was nuts. Guess what? She was right. Mom's are funny like that, they tend to know.
For a while now, I've thought it'd be awesome to somehow time travel and let my ten year old self meet the current me. Something tells me, she'd be petrified of me today. I can remember actually saying that I only wanted one or two tattoos, I didn't like piercings, was scared to go into Hot Topic or anything like it, hated the color black or any rock music, and swore I'd never be friends with anyone who wore Tripps.
Now, at twenty one, I have four tattoos, my lip pierced, work in an alternative store, practically live in Hot Topic, interview bands, manage a rock band and am drawn to anyone in Tripps.
Every time I think of this, it just makes me laugh because I honestly thought it'd never happen. It happened slowly, but here I am, totally different than I figured I'd ever be. I don't know what kind of life I thought I was going to have. I vaguely remember thinking I wanted to be married by twenty one, have my first kid by twenty three, and I wanted to have my own no kill shelter. Plus, I wanted to be an artist.
That didn't happen, and honestly, I'm glad. I like my life right now as it is. This life where I'm working at one of my favorite stores, getting to write about music and interact with other music lovers daily, and manage a band that I love, while being far too cynical of love to even give it a real chance.
Sorry, just wanted to have a reminiscent moment, and decided to share it with the internet. Do you ever do that? Just start thinking about how life has changed and end up going on a tangent about it? Maybe that's just me. I don't know. Let me know anyways.
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