So, I have a story for you, and it isn't entirely music related, but its something that needed to be talked about. I posted earlier about this on the Facebook page, but there was much more to it that didn't make it. Here seemed like the most fitting place.
Immortal Music has a very close internet friend, who I fondly call Pablo (Its an inside joke, that is not her real name), who has previously been in some very rough patches. We first started talking in May or June of 2013, when both of us were not in the best of places. Before I go on, I want to state that we do have permission to talk about this, and it is something quite important.
She told me that she at the time self harmed, and often wanted to end it all. If there's one thing I wish to stress to people in this world, its that there's forever a better outlet. Nothing is worth hurting yourself over and absolutely nothing is worth ending your life over. I've gotten into that many times here on Immortal Music and all the things connected to it, so I won't go off on a tangent about it. Anyways, given the way I feel about it all, I decided to try our best to help. I stressed to her that there's better ways, whether it was through music, a sport, art, or even just venting, there was always some sort of healthier outlet for the stress and emotion life brings. Istarted encouraging her to open up, and started offering the best advice we would. I also encouraged her to pay very close attention to lyrics, because encouragements could be found there.
Fast forward two years, and she is now a year and a half clean from self harm, graduating high school in one month and is going to go to her dream college to become a music therapist. She said somethings to us earlier that actually brought us to tears.
She told me that she was designing the top of her graduation cap today, and designed the most beautiful thing. This is what I talked about on the Facebook page, and once its all done and she actually has it, maybe we will share a picture of it, but for now, its staying a secret. What I thought was touching though, was she said she wants to add "Music is immortal" to it so later she can look at it and remember that's the reason she didn't give up.
If that wasn't touching enough, she later painted quite the mental picture that's almost haunting in a way. As we were talking, she said I turned everything around for her, because she was going to kill herself the night we started talking. She took our conversation as a sign that maybe it wasn't the right time, and I tried to tell her that no, i didn't turn it around. She did. I just helped offer advice. She's the one that decided to listen. Her message may forever stick in my mind, and she and I both thought maybe talking about it could actually encourage some people to push further.
This is word for word what her text message to me said;
"You're certainly the reason for it, and I can't thank you enough for it. If I had given up, I wouldn't be graduating. They'd have an empty seat with a cap and gown, and they'd spend an hour talking about me. A friend probably would've had to make a speech. I wouldn't be going to my top school to start my dream career. And I wouldn't have met you, or maybe we wouldn't have gotten this close."
If that doesn't serve as proof that things get better if you just keep going, I don't know what will. I asked her to add something to this all on her own. I told her she can write whatever feels natural to her, whether its telling her story or offering advice, but that will come later on its own. It was going to be part of this, but this is fairly long as it is, and maybe that needs to be a stand alone thing anyways.
She and I both though, do want this to stand for something. That something is never giving up. Remember, it always gets better. Its a cliche', yes, but there's truth hidden behind the word cliche'. Whatever is bothering you, know that unless its life threatening -it can't actually kill you. Don't let it either.
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Oh...and, darling? You'll be okay.
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