So, I want to get nostalgic and a little (okay very sappy) sappy with you guys for a few minutes, if that's okay. Fair warning, I will probably ramble, but I promise, its worth the read. Today is the ten year anniversary of the Immortal Music Facebook page, and while that might not seem like much to any of you, its a big deal to me. For context, the page came before the website. When I made it, I didn't make it with intention of doing journalism, or anything. I actually made it just days after joining Facebook because I wanted to share my love of music with people.
I had only in the past year, maybe year and a half or so, gotten into rock music fully. I had heard a handful of things prior to that, but I only hardcore got into rock and metal at either fourteen or fifteen. I literally don't remember, and sometimes I feel like it was younger, sometimes it feels like it was older. I don't know, I don't care, I guess it doesn't matter. All that matters is I got into it, and oh boy did it CHANGE MY LIFE. For the better, of course.
Does anyone remember the first time they ever turned to music for comfort? We've all done it, turned on songs to drown out the noise of life, or as some kind of escape. A moment I remember often, though I don't believe I've ever talked about online, is the first time I remember turning to music for that purpose. I realized the other day that the moment I'm thinking of was probably right around ten years ago as well. I do think it was just before I made the page, I actually think it might have lead to me wanting to make the page.
See I was homeschooled, and there's groups you can join just to socialize, or do some extra classes, whatever. Ours was a little clique-ish, and sometimes I was included in it, but sometimes I wasn't. I don't remember exactly what happened, but I remember leaving one of our drama classes early one day. Something or someone had made me feel like shit, and I wanted to leave. So I was crying in the car, waiting for my mom to say goodbye or something. I don't remember that detail either. I turned on my iPod and initially turned on the Jonas Brothers, who were my favorite at the time. But it wasn't doing enough for me. I was still upset, I wasn't distracted at all. I was hurt and mad all at once, and just knew I needed to drown it out.
At the time, I'm pretty sure I only had 3 rock bands on my iPod. Those were Three Days Grace, Bullet For My Valentine and My Chemical Romance. I knew only a few BFMV songs at the time, and I knew they were louder than anything else I had. So I went straight for "Waking The Demon." I played nothing but those three bands for who knows how long. All I know is I calmed down enough I nearly fell asleep in the car, and I never looked back. From that moment on, I turned to music for comfort, to escape, or just for fun.
I don't know exactly when that was, but I am sure it was before the page was made. I randomly decided to make it, and it took a couple years before I really got any followers, so most of the time it was me rambling to myself and maybe twenty people about music. I felt like a low-key DJ though, just sharing music, and some news. I started writing blogs, just to talk some.
Eventually, I joined a youth group and made new friends. A couple of them are still among my best friends to this day, and both helped encourage the growth of who I am today. One of them showed me an interview from Bryan Stars, and I decided I wanted to do that. I had already been here and there posting news I saw, or sharing my thoughts on a now defunct blog, so it felt like the right thing to do.
I'm finding myself reflecting a lot on how much came out of me just wanting to share my love of music. I've been to 23 shows, most of which I either had a pass for, or just wrote about anyway. I learned I have a love of photography because of this whole thing, I've met my mom's favorite band, I've met part of one of my favorite bands, I've made so many friends, done so many things that most people would never do. Hell, I've saved a couple lives even. Those stories are not mine to tell, but it all came from conversations sparked through the page -for the love of music.
Its gotten harder, its gotten less rewarding over the years. I've gotten discouraged and burned out more than once, but none the less, this whole world is part of who I am. I am so grateful to all who have stuck around and supported me. So many people had no idea it was more than just a Facebook page full of music, and that's fine. I'm just glad people were able to share the love of music with me, and that I've been able to make people smile.
Thank you for listening to me ramble, and for you all your support over these past 10 years. Here's to so many more adventures, and memories.
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